Adam Ayub is a well-known
cine artiste with multi-dimensional talents in
his field. He is also a good writer. This is an
extract from his autobiography. The filmography
of Adam Ayub is given separately. He graduated
from Ernakulam Maharajas College in 1972 and joined
the film Institute in Madras. After passing my
diploma, I worked in the film Industry for about
10 years, before switching over to television
when doordarshan started operation.
He has no other profession, but does several jobs
in the media .
He writes articles in English and Malayalam, and
teaches
cinema at various Media Institutes. He is also
an actor and screenplay writer.
He directs documentaries, serials and spots.
He translates Films and serials from different
languages into Malayalam, and vice versa.
He says he is not a psychologist, but according
to him, teaching is a psychological process ,
particularly acting, screenplay writing and direction,
where you have no prescribed textbooks to follow.
It is a sort of a psychological treatment, teaching
the art and craft of film making.
Ever since he passed out from the Film Institute
in 1975, he had been working in the film industry
as Associate director and in very few films as
actor. When Doordarshan was first established
in Kerala, he switched over to Television. Now
he is very active in the media doing the following
things.
Fallen Leaves
Chapter-2
The sojourn in Bangalore cost
me one year of my academic life. Though I had
passed the seventh standard from Bangalore, I
was not admitted to the 8th standard in Kerala,
due to the discrepancy in the school years in
Kerala and Karnataka. Akber and I were to study
in the same class. This was a great shame to me,
as it would appear to others that I had failed.
I was heart-broken. Finally I was admitted to
the SRV high school in Ernakulam, while Akbar
joined the old Haji Essa high school in Mattancherry.
After our return from Bangalore, we had rented
a house near mahallarappalli in mattancherry.
Since father’s money used to come every
month; we had a fairly better life. I remember
the rent for the house was Rs 18 per month. We
had an account (pattu) in the grocer’s shop.
We settled his accounts monthly.
While I was in high school, my
mother’s cousin brother came to visit us
from Connoor. It is a hill station near Ootty.
He offered to take me and Akbar to Connoor for
the vacation. We were thrilled. The nights were
cold there even in summer. Fog used to descend
in the evenings. It was very pleasant to walk
in the fog. It was a big joint family comprising
uncle’s many brothers and their mother.
The youngest of the brothers was Babu. Though
he was a couple of years older than me, he was
the darling and pet of everybody, being the youngest
in the family. Everyday, after lunch, he used
to disappear, and come back after some time. I
asked him several times where he went. But he
never gave a convincing reply. One day I insisted
I will go with him. Initially he refused to take
me; but finally relented. We went to a narrow
byline. Then he took out a cigarette from his
pocket and lighted it. I was surprised. He was
only a small boy! He made me promise that I will
not tell anybody.
Thereafter I used to accompany him daily on his
‘smoking breaks’. I used to watch
him with admiration when he blew smoke through
his nose. I really enjoyed the smell. On the fourth
day, I could not resist the temptation. When he
was about to throw away the cigarette butt after
finishing, I said eagerly: - “No, don’t
throw it away!”
He looked at me in surprise. Hesitatingly I extended
my hand and took the cigarette butt from his hand
and smoked it. I was slightly apprehensive of
his reaction, for he was my elder brother. But
he took a new cigarette from his pocket and offered
me. He was happy that he had a companion in sin.
I said hastily: - “No, no, I just wanted
to see how it tastes”
From the next day onward, we smoked independent
cigarettes. One day as we were coming down the
steps of the market after finishing our cigarettes,
one of my uncles was going up. He was very fond
of me. As soon as we met on the steps he hugged
me. He suddenly pushed me away, smelling cigarette
in my breath. He was shocked! He let me go then,
but confronted me later at home. Though he was
himself a smoker, he advised me against taking
up that habit at such a young age. He made me
promise that I will never smoke again. Though
I broke that promise, I never really was fascinated
with smoking and gave up the habit on my own.
The uncle, who made me promise, later died of
cancer at a young age. May that had a telling
effect on me
The ferry service between mattancherry
and Ernakulam was the cheapest mode of transport.
Even that was free for students. We were issued
free monthly passes. The boat jetties both at
Mattancherry and Ernakulam were far from home
and school respectively. So I had to walk long
distances daily. This continued for four years
till I passed S.S.L.C.
I was very shy and timid by nature.
But I was the class monitor. Every Friday afternoons
we had class meetings, which were conducted by
the class monitor. Those days I was under the
impression that I was a good singer. It is true
that I liked hindi songs and knew almost all the
songs by heart. I was an avid listener of Radio
Ceylon. Ameen Sayani’s Binaaca Geeth
Mala was one of my favorite programs. I used
to sing in the class meetings. My class mates
used to urge me to sing. Now I realize they were
pulling my leg. We used to have morning assembly.
Many students used to faint standing in the hot
sun for long. In the evenings National Anthem
was sung through the public address system before
terminating the classes. May be my reputation
as a singer had reached the headmaster’s
ears, because I was called to sing the National
Anthem daily. At ten minutes before the final
bell, the peon used to come with a chit from the
headmaster asking the class teacher to spare my
services. As the headmaster did not know to operate
the public address system, he asked me to do that
also. Frankly I knew nothing about the damn thing.
So I tagged my friend Venugopal along. He taught
me how to operate the sound system. Later both
of us became permanent fixtures in the evening
National Anthem singing function. Venugopal was
no better than me in singing. But nobody complained.
Because everybody was in a hurry to go home and
they were eager to get it over with soon.
S.R.V.High School was a boy’s
high school. It still is. But it was the only
school in Ernakulam to have Tamil medium. So girls
were also admitted in the Tamil medium. I was
in the English medium class. The Tamil students
were to sit in our class for the English and Hindi
classes. There were three girls in the tamil medium.They
were the only girls in the entire school, among
thousands of boys. Naturally the girls were very
shy and timid and did not interact with the boys.
One girl was a brahmin, one a Christian and the
other a muslim. I remember their names even today.
They were Meenakshi, Christy and Najma.
Najma was the better looking among the three.
I developed a crush for her. As I was very fond
of Hindi films and hindi songs, I used to imagine
myself as the hero and Najma as the heroine,whenever
I listen to Hindi romantic songs on the radio.
This was when I was in the eighth standard. The
school leader was Rajan, a handsome guy from the
tenth standard. He was also the under officer
(or whatever they used to call the leader) in
the NCC. He used to look very smart in his uniform.
I envied him. I did not get selection in the NCC,
as I had a very frail body. Some days I used to
go to the nearby woodlands hotel for lunch. One
day when I went for lunch, I heard a giggle from
the family cabin. I peeped through the half door.
I had the shock of my life. Rajan and Najma were
munching ice ream. That was the end of my first
love story.
Once there was a students’
strike. That was the first strike in which I participated.
There was no politically affiliated students union
in our school. I don’t even remember the
reason for the strike. All I remember is that
a student leader from outside came to our school
to lead our march from the school to some government
office. That man was a college student. He was
a short man. He came on a cycle. We came to understand
his name was A.K.Antony and he was the leader
of the Kerala Students Union. It was a very peaceful
march. I don’t remember any slogans we shouted.
But another strike, a violent one, still vivid
in my memory is the one I witnessed, when I was
a student of the primary class in Haji Essa High
chool in Mattancherry.
I was studying in class two.
The agitation lasted several days. The agitators
used to march on the road in front of our school,
shouting slogans. Sometimes they used to enter
the classrooms and the classes were dispersed.
The students were always looking forward to their
arrival. Their slogans were sung like a song in
chorus.
Angamali kallarayil, Nammude
sodararundengil
Aa Sodararane kattayam, pakaram njangal chodikkum.
(We vow to avenge the death of
our brothers, who are lying in the cemeteries
of Angamaly)
Later I came to know that, it was a state wide
agitation. In fact I was witnessing the historic
Liberation struggle to oust the first elected
communist government of the world; the government
Led by communist veteran EMS Namboothirippad.
When I was in the final year
at the school, I decided to enter the fray for
the election of the student chairman of the school.
I submitted my nomination papers. As the day of
the election drew near, there were a total of
twelve candidates for the post. The headmaster
had an idea. He announced that, on the Election
Day, he will give each candidate five minutes
to speak in the morning assembly, through the
public address system. I was crestfallen. I did
not have the courage to face the mammoth assembly,
let alone speak. It was a different matter, singing
the National Anthem, when all the students were
in the classes. No body saw me. They only heard
my voice. I was sure I could not make a speech.
But there was no backing out now. I ran to my
Malayalam teacher. He was a bald man, very much
feared by the students. He was a regular “pan”-chewer.
(Betel leaves and aricanut). After lunch, he used
to send me to buy “pan” for him. So
I had a good rapport with him. I told him I wanted
a speech. He said “why didn’t you
come early? I have already written speech for
ten candidates”. I pleaded with him “Sir,
you can’t leave me in the lurch. I had been
buying pan…” “Alright alright”
he interrupted. He tore out a paper from my notebook
and scribbled a few words and gave it to me. “You
will have to make do with this.”
There was not much time left for the assembly
to begin. I tried to mug up the lines. I was so
frantic that nothing entered my head. Then the
headmaster’s voice boomed over the speaker.
“The first candidate to
address you is Mr. Adam Ayub.” I had always
prided that alphabetically my name lead the rest.
But today I cursed my name, and tottered on to
the stage. I was sweating profusely. I stood before
the microphone. I could feel about three thousand
eyes on me. There was pin drop silence. I opened
my mouth. No voice came out. Everybody was waiting
with bated breath. “F r i e n d s…”
I croaked. But nobody heard anything. My voice
was choked. Headmaster had instructed that nobody
should exceed five minutes. I did not exceed even
one minute. I finished mumbling, ran backstage
and almost fainted. But I was glad the ordeal
was over. Then the other ten candidates followed.
They had all mugged up the speech written by the
‘Malayalam Sir’. At least they were
audible. I was the worst. Then came the twelfth
candidate.
He was very confident of himself. He folded his
hands and said ‘Namaskaram’ to the
audience. Then he started speaking. “You
might have seen the notices printed by the other
candidates.
I come from a very poor
family. I have no money to print notices. So I
appeal to you from my heart. If you consider me
worthy enough, please vote for me…”
He spoke for more than five minutes. Actually
the headmaster was so engrossed in his speech,
that he forgot to the press the bell after the
expiry of the stipulated time. He won the election
hands down. I did not give up. I took part in
the school anniversary fancy dress competition.
I made up myself as an Anglo-Indian lady and walked
across the stage swaying my hips and won second
price. (Thankfully there was no dialogue.) That
was the least I could do.
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