It
was an unusual day. That dew-soaked morning Arundhati
was not alone. Leaving her house, she had seen
Mr. Rawal, an officer of E-6 rank, Mr. Tiwari
(E-1) and Mr. Mishra (E-5) pass by in front of
her house, shabbily clad, hair unkempt and faces
unwashed, tinged with sadness. They had cast furtive
sidelong glances at her house, their heads bowed.
Exactly at that moment Arundhati covered the
distance between her veranda and the tennis court
in one leap. Walking briskly she overtook the
three, feigning total ignorance and pretending
not to be surprised to see them in such outfits
at such an early hour. For Arundhati had got wind
of the matter. She knew there was no escape for
her until she reached the next turning and vanished
from sight. Someone might break the news at any
moment and then how could she possibly face such
a situation!
Her desire to slip away from all social custom
and convention like a puff of air or a fistful
of water—was that a sign of complexes or
of unsociability?
Once her quick steps had taken her beyond the
colony she felt as if someone had flung open the
doors and windows of a closed room and turned
the morning into an experience of dewy freshness.
Everyday she had to cross the officers’
colony, and then staff quarters, to reach the
main road near the laborers’ colony to catch
her bus.
Many in the officers’ colony did not approve
of Arundhati’s taking the road running through
the staff and workers’ colony. The hatred
and discontent of the officers has led to the
raising of a wall across the road between the
staff quarters and the officers’ quarters.
The concentrated anger of the unruly children
of the staff, however, had caused the wall to
be razed to the ground during the holi that year.
A new wall was built with redoubled vigour and
vengeance two or three day later. Arundhati named
it the Berlin wall. At one side people had cut
a breach in somebody’s fence and opened
a pathway towards the officers’ colony.
Arundhati used that pathway everyday.
She had caught a glimpse of Mrs. Rawal and Mrs.
Mishra through the window as she primped in front
of her dressing table just before going out. Both
seemed needlessly worried and restless –
evidently they were preparing to go somewhere.
Arundhati woke Aditya up, “Hey, get up!
Do you hear, perhaps MD’s mother passed
away. I don’t have time, I’m going.
You should call on them at least once. Rather
than caring about propriety we should care more
about the fact. it would be quite tough for us
to get on here if we don’t go.”
Aditya’s eyes were instantly free from
sleepiness. He realised that Arundhati was making
good her escape after passing the buck onto him.”
Why don’t you so one thing”, said
Aditya, “Just stop by their house on your
way to work.”
Arundhati replied while putting the duplicate
key, her hankie, etc. in her purse, “No,
I can’t go. I’m already late .I’ll
be delayed still more if I go. What’s your
difficulty? You don’t have to go to the
office now. Besides, you needn’t go to the
office if you are going to the MD’s.”
She wondered if Aditya had gone; unless he had,
the whole thing would take on a different colour.
If she were living on the other side of the Berlin
wall, she would probably not have cared about
all these niceties. They had moved to this side
with Aditya’s promotion.
After the promotion Arundhati had been most eager
to move to this side. She harbored a deep grudge
against her former colony. The noise of the scantily-clad
children outside as one came out of the house,
the crowd of women picking lice, the men calmly
playing cards clad in their underwear’s,
the intimacy of betel-chewing men barging into
the house without rhyme or reason, all this was
intolerable for her. After the promotion she had
pleaded with Aditya to leave that colony, for
fear her children would go astray mixing with
the uncivilized children there.
There was no vacancy, nor any possibility of
one, on the officers’ colony except for
this house. Once a guest house, it had become
more dilapidated and uglier with each passing
year. Besides, it was as if someone had severed
its connection to all the other houses. On the
left side of the completely secluded house was
a moat-like drain, ten to fifteen feet deep, while
a hundred feet away on its right was a tar road.
Some did not like their shifting to this side,
apprehending problems of adjustment with these
people who were so full of complexes. Others advised
against shifting because, with no other house
nearby, no one would come to their rescue if theirs
was broken into. Still others imagined the house
to be haunted. Despite all this Arundhati had
taken a fancy to it from the very day Aditya had
brought her by scooter to see it. He had told
her, ‘Give it a thought. You can shift if
you like. But don’t blame me afterwards.”
That was in autumn just after the rains. The
house had just been given a fresh bath when Arundhati
reached there, riding pillion. A red-coloured
lonely house at the top of the hill. Each room
was like a hill. Three windows in the bedroom.
There were shelves in the kitchen for the gas
oven, heater and other necessities. The dining
room was quite spacious. Arundhati felt a little
unhappy over not finding a basin stand. She instantly
thought of installing a new basin. There was a
commode and a bath tub in the bathroom. The bungalow
was set in a garden of mango, neem, teak, rotha,
guava and berry. Perhaps there had been a flower
garden once, but it was now on ruins in the absence
of a boundary wall. Only a few bougainvillea creepers
lay on the ground here and there. From the veranda,
beyond the slope at the foot of the hill, a lake
could be seen. Stretching your vision a little
further you could catch sight of a river.
One felt like decorating the veranda, the main
attraction of the house, with a few garden chairs.
Uninhabited, it was littered with cow dung and
goat droppings.
Once Aditya had unlocked the house after picking
his way through cow dung, goat droppings and urine
stains, Arundhati had exclaimed, “such a
big house! One feels like getting list here.”
She had felt the same way on an earlier occasion,
when Aditya had removed her from her village and
brought her to his work place for the first time.
Aditya had opened the lock after getting off the
rickshaw. It was like a mess with no boundary
wall on front. The drawing room literally bordered
on the road. Arundhati had remarked as she opened
the door. “such a small house!” Aditya
knew it was difficult to please Arundhati, so
he had preferred to remain silent.
After entering the big house Arundhati had called
out, cupping her hands in front of her mouth,
”jhumu, jhumu,jhumu !“ the echo was
returned instantly. She had called out her son,
Badsha’s name. The four walls had called
back, Badsha, Badsha.
Leaving her son and daughter to play with the
echoes, she collected tasar cocoons from the outstretched
branches of the unknown, skyscraping tree. Arundhati
was not acquainted with these golden nests.
She had fallen in love with the house, despite
the marks of water seepage on the left wall on
the bedroom and the unclean toilet. She had said,
“ Let’s move in on an auspicious day.”
It was indeed comforting, this move to the officers’
colony, where there was no crowding of naked children
and no rustic shouting and swearing. Arundhati
had said to Aditya, ”This probably is the
difference between this side of the Berlin wall
and the other.”
But everything has its own unique character .one
is different from the other. Arundhati was both
surprised and charmed to see Mr. Mishra of UP,
of E-6 rank, who lived on the other dide of the
tar road, playing with her children on her veranda
the day after they shifted. An officer of E- 6
rank had allowed her children to ride on his back!
After all what was their locus stand?
They had just been promoted to E-1 rank. Seeing
her Mr. Mishra said, “Hello! Sister–in–law.
Is Sahu Sahib not at home? “Arundhati was
pleased to hear this, though sahib didn’t
go well with Sahu. Aditya had been known as Sahu
babu on the other side of the Berlin wall. He
had now become sahib after crossing the threshold
of status. Thar day Arundhati told Aditya, “Mishra
Sahib is very nice. He doesn’t have an iota
of pride. “Smiling, Aditya replied, “It
is difficult to know these people. Take care how
you relate to them.” Arundhati answered
angrily, “You are on the habit of finding
fault with everything.”
Despite her disagreement with Aditya, she got
to know life on this side within a short time,
and has her share of bitter experiences. As they
had come to the other side of the wall after promotion,
they were not accepted by the other officers already
living there. Arundhati couldn’t fit into
their neat pecking order. Besides, so many incidents,
big and small, occurred in her life that she felt
suffocated even in open space.
One day Mrs. Nauak, who happened to hail from
the same district as she, had paid a visit to
her house. Arundhati hurriedly prepared cauliflower
pakoras. Picking up a pakora, Mrs. Nayak said
bluntly, her nose raised, “Our children
will not touch pakora without sauce.”
Arundhati was in for a shock. How trivial sauce
is! It was as if someone has pricked her heart
with a needle. See how easily she was shown her
place in the class divide, yet Arundhati had to
swallow her pride, although she was far more educated
than Mrs. Nayak.
One day Mrs. Mishra started shouting at the top
of her voice from her garden at the sight of Arundhati,
just back from leave, “See how cauliflowers,
radishes and carrots are disappearing from our
garden? Why, we never knew what stealing was earlier.
How dare people do this?” Arundhati would
probably not have felt bad even if Mrs. Mishra
had cried herself hoarse narrating the same incident
to her acquaintances of the road, but when she
directly accused Arundhati saying the same thing
had never happened when Mrs. Behera lived next
door, Arundhati was terribly hurt.
Though Arundhati suffered the humiliation, she
could not bring herself to say the people on the
other side of the Berlin wall were not thieves.
She could not tell Mrs. Mishra she had lice there
for five years and that her record was clean.
She could not tell her she had often seen her
Personnel Officer neighbor’s wife and her
maid stealing vegetables from the garden.
Rather she had shrunk herself into a nutshell
of civility after all these incidents. She had
told Aditya, “Our house is an island. We
shall mix with the officers’ colony if we
like. If not with them, then with the senior staff.
If we so like, we can also associate with the
people from the other side of the Berlin wall.”
Yet she never had rime to enjoy the natural scenery,
sitting on her beautiful veranda, except on Sunday
evenings. Nor did she have time to collect tasar
cocoons from her beautiful cemented courtyard
or to peep into her neighbors’ green gardens.
However, after living on this side, Arundhati
was sure at least of one thing, that people living
here were insecure. They had sold their likes
and dislikes long ago. They couldn’t even
sing or dance heartily.
It was as if everything was turn by remote control,
and the remote control was in the hands of one
person, none other that the MD. People competed
with each other to curry favour with him.
Arundhati was under the impression she was free
from all this. For this reason she was not a member
of the Ladies Club. For the same reason she did
not visit anyone. That she was not free, however,
was brought home to her one day when Mrs MD,on
a morning walk, had met her and asked, “how
do you like this place ?” Arundhati had
been amazed and surprised to learn that she was
known to Mrs MD.
She had only made a brief reply, smiling, “Fine.”
“Out house commends a view of whatever
takes place on your house.” Having said
this, she had smiled, and, with quick steps took
the little bridge over the moat-like drain and
was gone.
Was it a winning smile ? Or was it something different?
The strange smile got entangled in her head like
the loose end of a thread. The trees formed a
tight mesh around her house, but despite this
she too had come within the range of the MD’s
remote control.
As a result a ban was imposed in Arundhati’s
house on walking, smiling, talking, quarrelling,
disco dancing, climbing the iron bar on the veranda
lime a monkey, on lungi and vest, on naked feet,
on the bare-bodied servant and on the irrational
assertion of masculinity on the part of Aditya.
“This isn’t your staff colony. Why
do you howl and scream like a savage?”
“When will you learn not to eat outside?
Who asked you to walk on the ground with naked
feet?”
“Why mummy? Why can’t we dance and
eat outside? You never restricted us before?”
“No my son, you shouldn’t act like
that. There is a witch around, she will notice
you.”
“What is a witch, mother?”
“A witch is an evil woman. Anyway, what
will you get out of this? Only remember not to
do what you are forbidden to.”
This had gradually thrown Arundhati into a situation
of helplessness, for news about what saree she
wore, who visited her house, and, whether they
came by car or by Hero Honda, used to reach Mrs
MD.
Mrs MD asked Arundhati as she gave her a lift
in her jeep, “I suppose you are being visited
by your father.”
“How did you know ?” asked Arundhati.
“Mrs Mishra was telling me.”
Arundhati then understood through whose eyes
Mrs MD looked at her house.
Perhaps that is why Arundhati felt a sense of
guilt and fear of having made good her escape
despite knowing full well about the death of Mrs
MD’s mother–in-law. So she had returned
home very early that day. On reaching home she
found an unusual stillness everywhere. There was
not even the buzzing of a single fly in the colony,.
The pervading gloom had reached its climax.
Arundhati had no idea how long MD’s mother
had been unwell. She had heard about it from Mrs
Mishra only a week back. Mrs Mishra had said,
“Tell me what I should do. Today is papu’s
birthday. there’s no getting away from observing
it. Do you know what has happened in the meantime
? Do you know about MD’s mother being admitted
to the Cuttack hospital?”
“IS that true?” asked Arundhati.
“How come you are the last to know? Who
do you thing is minding his job? The civil executive
engineer, Mr Rout, the accounts officer, Mr Padhi,
the personnel officer are all attending on her
there. The old lady is absolutely at her last
stage. Will it be proper to have a celebration
under such circumstances? I am praying for her
to live one more day at least. Please say a prayer
for me,” Mrs Mishra had said this in a very
worried tone.
Mishra Saheb’s family celebrated the birthday
in their house secretly with a few close friends.
The old lady on this side of the Berlin wall was
nor yet dead, so did gloom prevail for the past
week. There was no sound of television, music
or dance. There was no evening walk in starched
and ironed sarees, and no rummy at the club.
Mrs Mishra had told her in the evening the night
before,” Do you know that the ambulance
has been sent for? Ihave a feeling the old lady
is probably gone. The personnel officer came for
the ambulance; he probably went back around ten
o’clock. If there was nothing serious, why
was the ambulance sent for? They might return
any moment. Get ready. We shall step out as soon
as we hear the news.”
Arundhati was almost ready, dressed in a presentable
saree. She had also hurriedly cooked the evening
meal of roti and curry. She looked through the
window again to see if Mrs Mishra was calling
her.
No, no such thing happened before she went to
sleep. Mrs Mishra did not come to call her. But
in the morning she knew from the pale appearances
of Rawal Sahib, Mishra Sahib and others that they
had returned in the night and the bad news had
spread quickly.
Arundhati suddenly felt as if Mrs MD could see
her through the wooded growth. She panicked. It
might look bad; she should call on them at least
once.
Arundhati was setting off for the MD’s
residence. It was as if a sweet fragrance circulated
everywhere. Mrs Mishra was drying her wet hair.
She called Arundhati over to her and said, “Perhaps
you are going to Mrs MD.”
“Yes. Has the body been taken to the cemetery?”
“Long ago. I have just had my bath. Still
it is better you should pay them a visit. yes.
change your saree; wear a dull-coloured saree,
and, of course, slippers on your feet.”
Arundhati’s heart was pounding like mad
as she approached the gate to the MD’s residence.
She found out from the watchman that the Memsahib
was at home. While she was in a dilemma whether
to enter the hall from the veranda, the sweeper
of the house came out and enquired if she was
looking for the Memsahib. He had hardly finished
his speech when Mrs MD entered the hall with hurried
feet. She probably had a chore to attend to. The
moment she saw Arundhati, she welcomed her into
the house.
Arundhati was unable to decide whether to sit
down or to remain standing. She had no idea what
to say by way of consolation or sympathy. Asking
her to sit for a while and assuring Arundhati
that she wouldn’t be a moment, Mrs MD went
inside. Two large plates with salted pastry and
sweets were placed on the centre table in front
of her. Arundhati had the feeling that the entire
existence of the house was reduced to those two
plates.
Mrs MD came back after about five minutes. She
had just had a bath. She said, “Eating and
sleeping have irregular for the last few days.
Besides we kept a vigil over the body for the
whole of last night. My mother-in-law was immensely
fond of me. She breathed her last only after drinking
her last spoonful of water from my hand.”
Arundhati did not know why just at that very moment
she remembered somebody else’s version that
while Mrs MD’s mother-in-law was alive,
she had been consigned to the servant’s
room. Pointing her finger at the sweets, she asked
Arundhati to help herself.
“No, thank you.”
“Then have some salted pastry.”
“No, no.” Arundhati nodded her head
in the negative.
At that moment Mrs Nayak entered, carrying something
in a utensil. Her eyes seemed swollen with excessive
weeping. She did not even look at Arundhati. “Did
you light a clay lamp on a bed of sand? A nail
has to be hammered into the wall”, she said
looking at Mrs MD.
Arundhati stood up, thinking it would not be
proper to stay unnecessarily long. She said, “You
must be rather busy now.
” Oh Yes, I really am.”
“I could have come in the morning, but
I was totally in the dark about it”, said
Arundhati. She continued, “I leave the house
quite early in the morning .” Mrs MD smiled
a little, but her face then became stern
“How come you didn’t know ! I thought
I saw your husband here when the body was being
taken away for cremation.”
Arundhati was caught-her face flushed crimson
with shame. She was speechless. She returned home
quietly. She felt as if a pair of eyes were following
her. Standing on her lovely veranda, she felt
as though a pair of eyes were watching her through
the trees and the leaves. She went in and shut
the door. She had desired such a solitary island.
But then she wondered if there existed any such
island on this earth where another man had not
set foot.
Dr.(Ms)
Sarojini Sahoo (b.1956)is undoubtedly one of the
best writers in today’s literary scene of
Oriya.She becomes involved in the literary world
ever since her school days. Her first works were
published in the literary page of Oriya daily the
Prajatantra , when she was mere a student of high
school.While she was a student in under graduate
classes, her stories had been published in the Jhankar
, the most prestigious literary magazine of that
time in Oriya Literature. Perhaps Sarojini is the
junior among all writers to get herself published
in the Jhankar, the literary journal edited by Dr.Harekrushna
Mahatab.
Delhi Doordarshan, the National Channel of India
has featured her life style and creations in its
special tele-serial “Literary Postcard .”
She has publishedeight novels and eight anthologies
of short stories including one of her Short Stories
Collection in English , and one of her novel translated
in Bengali and has been published from Bangladesh
She has been widely translated and published in
different Indian languages. Her stories have been
included in anthologies published by Harper Collins,
National Book Trust and Sahitya Akademi. She has
attended various All India Writer’s meet and
workshops arranged by Bharat Bhawan, Bhopal, Sahitya
Akademi and National Book Trust.
She has been conferred with Orissa Sahitya Akademi
Award ,Jhankar award ,The Prajatantra award and
Bhubaneswar Book Fair award for her fiction writings
.
She can be reached at sarojinisahoo@gmail.com
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